Today I remembered how frustrated I was before coming to Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of my sins and eternal life. I was young; about 10 years old; when I became aware of my sin problem and separation from the Holy God. I sensed that the God of the Bible; Father, Son, and Holy Ghost; was angry with and at me, yet I did not know how to be reconciled to this one true God. I tried with short bouts of what I thought was righteous living lasting until the next temptation presented itself. Frustration quickly set in as I grew older and my sins grew in quantity and variety. I will not give details; but my sins were first against a holy God, and many times involved or had direct ill effect on others, and I added sin to sin before and during my teen years.
The Hellish icing on the cake, so to speak, was the nagging thought that I had committed the unpardonable sin, even though I did not know what it was or when I did it. Also I was ambushed with the lie and trap of Satan that I had to confess to mankind all the evil I had committed in my short 17 years. Though I was still a young man, my sins had serious consequences with my step father, mother and neighbors. To confess my sins to them would have serious repercussions that a young teen could not bear!
But!, thank God through my Saviour Jesus Christ for his servant Grandma Miracle. Grandma Miracle was a member of a church where I visited a revival one Sunday night in the Spring of 1972, on a quest for some type of relief from my burden of sin. She was able to do what no one else in my life was able to carry out. She gave me the gospel of Jesus Christ in no uncertain terms. Grandma Miracle (that’s her real name) was able to make me understand that as long as I had a desire to have my sins blotted out and a desire to be reconciled to God through the blood of Jesus Christ, I had not committed any unpardonable sin or sins. I’m eternally grateful for that good news! Next she was able to convince me that my sins only involved God and me and that Jesus already knew about them, and had paid the price of my sins on the cross at Calvary. And all I had to do was receive it by faith. I did. The Holy Ghost of God took up residence in my body, I was born again!! Praise God!!! The Bible teaches that we will find God when we seek him with all our heart, and when I gave up on my foolish notions and surrendered all my fears to God and put faith into what the word of God says; Alas; I was born again through faith in Jesus’ blood.
I have written this post to help others who might be wrestling with the same fears I was and to show all my readers how to be reconciled to the one true God of the Holy Bible. God Bless.
